Oh lord~

I won't mind any barriels that i am facing all this while on me but please LORD. Please strengthen my father's heart. Help him been able to live a longer time, because i really had lots of mistakes and debts i haven't and couldn't pay him yet. Lord Please give me some time, please help him to go though all sort of critical stages and so on. I'm feeling scared this time, before this i'm such a cold blooded person without any fear in doing stuff. I'm sorry. I couldn't give this a bet, i just lay his life on your hand lord. I'm placing all my trust onto you LORD.

Guilty night

yesterday was 4/2/2012 and i planned to bring janice to service her car then we went for lunch at pizza hut, mega long since its the nearest mall to Thian's workshop.. after finishing servicing Thian suddenly asked us if we wanna join them to Lai kai's open house.. transport provided so i joined and surprisingly janice said she wanna go too lol.. But actually her only reason she wanna go is to win money lol.. her luck was very good this CNY.. then after lai kai's open house she brought us to another friend, Simon who was about to proposed at absinthe.. it was cool for its the 1st time i saw a real live propose scene haha but of course janice brought many of my friends over there we all very sakai.. after this we went to Janice house to gamble again.. i brought RM10 and i loss all to janice as usual but this is the 1st time i see Janice lossing so much money.. until the last game all of us raise our capital to the max except me Rm2 lol.. but i became the hero for them.. for at 1st she got black Jack as the broker but i got 15 and that game doesnt count.. 2nd round i got black jack and well as some of them but her card sucks so she not only loss the chance to regain her capital but paying extra money.. lol last night couldnt sleep well coz i see.. she was good.. Because without realizing i lose to her RM90+Rm10 she eventually spend that money back on us.. lol.. she spend me pizza yesterday, 2 days ago at lucy kitchen and previously dumplings..

CNY results

wow today is the 31th of Jan. every Tarcian of sabah branch get their results. DO you wanna know my results? well.. i wont beat around the bush, and just say the overall results.. i.. i.. i losed RM70. ahh.. never wish to gamble anymore.. every year is the same T_T yesterday was winning a lot in front.. but yeah.. my luck goes down once i raise the money =( Oh yea, as for my college results.. i got 1 B+ and others distinction^^

28/1/2012 saturday

Today went to Suria for movie with desmond and thien. we watched "The Viral Factor" the movie s cool Jay Chou has been adapting lots of changes for nowadays most of the movie that caught the eye of many people are action movie. There u see? he act in a action movie. same goes to his MV mine mine- korean type.. well not to say its a bad thing but i'm his all time fans haha. This movie he acted werent that nice, i'd prefer him acting in rommance type and not bad, Thumbs up for them that we can see that they r promoting Malaysia, showing several high tech, nice cars that malaysia has XD i'm proud of it Thanks Jay Chou. Apart from that, abt me. kinda jealous of something.

Its Chinese New Year

Yea its Chinese New Year CHu 3 (25/1/2012) the day b4 that night i lost Rm42.50 in gambling.. thanks to the red dot(hong dian) thingy.. lol but after that the next morning i spent almost half my day gambling with janice 1 vs 1.. and guess wat? i won back some of my money!! around RM2+ lol.. maybe i din take gambling seriously or wat the money always get away from me =/ btw i also learnt that Janice is a good cook yesterday xD she made Mee sedap and some dishes, its all SALTY but yea at least better than me haha. thats all

Yesterday 21/1/2012 i went to MB with Lee Guan for lunch.. walao the food there aint hygenic even its salty but after that both of us kept complaining tht we have stomache haha.. But that never stop us from going out for movie at night with michael and edward
we watched that movie (till now i dunno wat is the title) haha.. the movie is funny u all should watch ;)
BTW happy Chinese New year to all of u!!
well besides all these i've learnt abt myself recently that i suddenly got impatient especially while driving.. cant stand slow drivers even i am 1 of them haha whoever who drives slower than me i'll hon u XD remember that

why?

bored.. tired.. felt defeated.. not ready for studies then got affected with relationship problems.. i hate this feelings.. really couldn't describe what is my current feelings now.. always i tell myself to put those stupid relationship stuff aside but still it will come back and if i go for it.. i'll get hurt or something even if she's not my girlfriend.. lol.. 1 day i must throw away my books and start learning how to be a socialble man.. i need it really.. too must stress will defenately get me several A's in most of my subject but at the same time reducing my time in enjoying with friends and the person i like.. well basically i wont mention who is the person i like but its obvious for my real life friends.. they knew it.. but i'd prefer better on my bestfriend.. since she's got a bf now and changing her career into working in an office, i believe we'll sooner or later loss contact with each other.. well i can say that without her, i might loss my sanity long long ago.. so.. yeah.. she could be someone important to me.. As for the person i'd like.. hmm.. yeah.. i like her but she sometimes seems to like me too but sometimes not and i just knew her half a year.. maybe i need to understand her a bit more longer b4 i tackle.. if she is still available in the future.. talk about my studies, hmm.. Finally only 1 subject i got the highest but its just a simple test.. it's my macro.. i scored 99 and is very satisfied with it.. as for the other subjects.. i need to work harder on it.. then for my sports.. i've joined my bestfriend and her friends that group and he told me that i improved a lot but unfortunately my exam is coming so i refuse to follow them for badminton.. family problems.. well usually nothing much till recently.. my mum felt sick and i still doesnt had the mood to look after my parent's business.. she told me to change another business but Hello? i'm still studying in diploma level how do you aspect me to think of a long term business for you now? she sometimes treated me like a kid as well.. and i was like WTF.. up till my friend Ian, he has recruited me in his dancing group.. i think the reason why i joined his group is for chasing girls i like but hmm.. seems like i always have an unstable answer whether i like someone or not.. but for Ian so sorry that i have to learn dancing a lil bit later.. will work really hard.. Till now, actually i thought i know myself well but not at all.. what is my future goals? of coz being rich and have my own family with my own house and cars.. well.. thats everyone's answer.. but i mean maybe my job, relationship, attitude, likes, dislikes.. etc. everything has made me gone crazy.. i told myself since i was form 4 that when i grow up i'll be an accountant then said businessman, then now? no idea.. i told myself that i will like someone but do i really like her? cant answer. i told myself to control my bad attitude everything but why? i still will act like that sometimes..

15/11/2011

wow.. what a day.. it's not only my newsletter is told to be redo but i've seen a snake just now.. wth.. didnt know wat to do but by the time i brought a broom.. its gone.. now that i dunno where it go everyone is worried about it.. Snake ah snake.. dun play hide and seek with me now == just let me kill u and its fair.. here's a MV.. nice song.. the voice had made me feel a lot more relax..

Busy November - december

this will be the most busy month for me.. i have to complete 2 more assignment that is ITS(individual and group). too bad i couldn't handle it well until i have to give up playing badminton on december.. But it's ok.. because i myself didn't even know if i really like to play badminton or not.. my CEO of our badminton group,stanley kept encouraging me to join.. He is a good couch haha but too bad.. and wow.. 1st time i heard someone saying my hair looks nice - i mean the curly hair i had after perming.. and yeah that is Janice, haha b4 this i'd think of pulling it straight back but now hmm.. looking forward for my assignment to be done.. you see Janice is funny, she is looking at share, she wanted to play that and she find me to play along haha.. of coz we r not rich we'll play RM100 (50 from her 50 from me) haha i wonder how will it end up but i'll give it a try.. Just waiting for her to do the research =p thats all for my life so far.. Next week Macro test 2.

Unforgetable 11.11.2011

Today is Gloria's Birthday and i didn't aspect that i'll be this excited.. even more excited than the birthday girl.. haha.. Maybe it's my 1st time doing so many things.. 1st time i drive out with friends, 1st time send ppl home, 1st time let the worker at Shell's station LC, 1st time manage to swim while breathing and more.. Haha.. it might be common for most of u but for me.. i never experienced so many 1st time in my life so i appreciated it very much.. Especially in such a Epic date 11.11.11!! haha.. u see.. i thought today's plan was just hanging out for a movie or having lunch at anywhere special but we end up swimming at waterworld.. althought the equipment there sucks but with friends, it's fun! later then.. some of us go for the 2nd round that is having dinner at sailor's cafe.. although we r allowed to use the closed section part.. it was very beautiful.. but the portion of the foods there has reduced to half the actualy size.. Now wat attracts me in Sailor's is that it doesnt charge service charge and also government charge.. so its cheap and worth it eating there.. haha.. i really thank God for having so many friends there.. i'll keep myself up and try to catch up with them as soon as my assignments r done.. my plan is to finish everything tomorrow

7/11/11 Christian Fellowship Camp at kundasang

talk about the past few days.. 3/11/11 my bestfriend, janice celebrated her birthday at Chocolatte Factory. She planned to stay up till morning with us but who knows she end up getting drunk before mid.. i also felt a bit dizzy that day but i'm not drunk.. But i never wish to join them again.. this is a place like hell to me.. and next 2 days it was my camp.. [5/11/11 - 7/11/11] we went to kundasang and i've taken tons of beautiful picture about Kinabalu Nature.. It was really a memorable memory to me, i love to hang out around with friends and at the same time receiving the gosspel from Joshua(organiser of the camp). He was a good speaker, on our 1st night in Bundu Tuhan( place we stay) he gave us a tremendously meaningful preach and that night have influenzed and change many ppl's thoughts.. He was a really blessed child of God and i wish i'll be like him someday. For what he have thought that night i will not be able to list out any of it because it was really a long story, u can ask him.. Besides sharing of the gosspel, Joshua also did organized as much activities that he could for our trip so that we dun felt boring.. he went to a few place around kundasang that is Kinabalu park, Sabah Tea Garden and Hot spring at ranau. I believe most of us enjoyed ourself there. I also manage to met a few new friends there. 1 of them is Daniel, brother of Gloria. And he is the 1 who saved me from stepping on a snake. haha.. after all, i'm unsure if my heart r still at there.. Bundu Tuhan is a place, i can say.. even without air con/ even fan u can feel the breeze from time to time or in other words its cool 24 hours.. I don't even felt like going back but still i need to go back to KK.. Now welcome back to my stressing life.. And i'm going to work harder now in my studies in order to cover up my family. This morning when i just got back my mum told me a plan.. she said she wanted to sell our house off here and move to KL and start a new life there coz our business aint running smoothly now.. Dang but for me, i will never wanna live in KL.. althought i only have a few friends here but i never will like KL for most of the people there are aggressive. Let me be aggressive and not u haha. Thats all, i have to write my newsletter report, as well as english oral script, also ITS exam, assignment(individual),(group) i hope i manage to go though all of this successfully. =)
Oh and for the pictures i took i will show all of u next time when i'm free again.

Doing part of my english oral presentation

While working on my english oral script of "Effects of coffee" i accidently got through this topic
Have u ever wonder y coffee is better than woman?
now girls, look at this website which explains why =D
http://www.buzzle.com/editorials/2-26-2002-12208.asp

Next, Happy Deepavali to everyone especially those who r indians =D
Today i went out with Yeoh Chen for movies and pools at Centre point. It was a surpise that from what we see is, today is Deepavali day rite? but the chinese seems to be more than indians in the shopping mall.. LOL XD
here, we've watch 2 movies that are "The Thing" & "Hong Kong Ghost movie" PS: forget the title of the hong kong movie. But yeah, these 2 movies sucks lol.. i waste rm14 and my time on these. The good outcomes is i improved my Pool's skill. All thanks to Yeoh Chen haha, i beat him anyhow but not all games. Later then nothing special and we got home :D

Bad day for me

today 21/10/11 friday used to be a beautiful day for me but i have no idea if i'd ruin it.. Just now i plan to go for movie with Crystal but the better than nothing cinema at megalong said we r 2 so they cant put the show on.. oh wtf.. then we got our refund and as i'm abt to go home i almost got an accident coz of that ninja king in front of me zz.. maybe it was my 1st time doing side parking today.. then as i got home, the road just right in front of my house got flooded == and not just that for today, when i switch on my toilet light it couldnt function as well.. zz i wonder wat will happen next to me.. maybe right now updating blogs and surfing net and suddenly no current? == talk about the better outcomes for me.. If i were to try my last chance in chasing a girl i dunno wat will happens lol..

Update abit

Recently i realised that i always use the word outdate. haha. And the more i say the more i realised how outdate am i.. so i'll update abit my old picture its probably a picture taken 1 month or few weeks ago. I really wish to keep myself up to date as much as possible haha

Macro Test 1

It was a tough test for me.. i thought i've read everything but yet i still had some minor mistake which it leads to 5 marks of deduction.. argh.. i dunno when will i ever have the chance again to aim 100 marks lol.. but another good thing for me is that Gloria, my toughest competitor in studies. Unfortunately got 1st blood with some mistake too XD (Evil me) i was about to fall into that trap too if i read the question properly.. but thank god, Jesus covered my eyes so i didnt see that haha.. well coming up we'll have more assignment and things to hand in. i hope that i can manage everything completely and perfectly of coz

Updated :D

This coming monday will be my Macroeconomics test 1.. i hope i could score well in this subject.. well, PMR just got over.. i was stress around that week so din get to wish my friends gud luck in time lol but i believe they had much preparation already =) today 14/10/11 is my dad's birthday as well as Deborah.. Actually i suppose to be playing badminton with my friend Janice and vivian today but due to some arrangement problem that i couldnt manage i end up refused to join Janice they all. It was bad that i felt guilty today.. not only to Janice but also Yi Yi and Ian who provide transport to me.. they r good for waiting me while i'm buying present.. Btw i wish to work harder on my sports coz i got the last in 100m -.-

A new life

Ever since i passed my JPJ yesterday i started feeling a whole change right now.. lesser stress just on my studies i have to work hard for my 2nd sem.. my 1st Sem was doing great 3.75 CGPA =) hmm.. i was thinking if i could quit my game as well.. although i knew its impossible but i'll try.. hmm..

i'm being frustrated.

i calculate this month today is 14/9/11 and out of this 14 days i hang out with different groups of friend for 8 days.. then i sum up my total expenses which is rm246 == and i havent been doing anything usefull.. i feel that i'm a useless person with no goals to achieve, lazy person, not a good son, so and so.. i've been spending my mum's money like that instead of finding a job.. why will this happen to me? oh i wish i wont.. well i have a lot to talk about.. 1st of all.. my unexpected chess competition after my exams.. then another chess competition after the week which i spent lots of time practicing and get the 13th place only == The loss of my close friend's dad that he passed away.. makes me wanna spend more time to make her happy.. always get money from my mum with open hands == never find a job during this 3 weeks of sem break.. wallet being stolen everything i have to pay penalties.. it wasnt a good idea that even my JPJ re-test is on 19th sep which is the 1st day of my college sem 2.. i dont wan to miss so much.. oh well.. the best thing of all is that out of hundreds of TARC student i'm almost like 1 of them who doesnt get my results yet due to the intranet password error.. wth? did anyone tell me i have to check my results through intranet other than getting it from my mailbox? why? why all this happened to me? i didnt even help my parents in their shop.. everytime hang out or stay at home being feeded like a useless people.. All of the sudden i felt really huge guilt.. last night went out with Janice, my close friend to make her happy then end up overnight at her house.. i hope she will be happy.. later then i have lots of plan again maybe even tonight and tomorrow and friday and saturday.. then sunday if my car instructor is good enough he might wan me to learn driving but i told my old chess coach that i will go to lido practicing chinese chess.. well everyone has their story.. some hates him but i found the pity in him.. Am i a good listener? it seems that i'm like a good listener but i couldnt solve my problems well.. haiz..

Bad News

this sem break i we out with various groups of friends and of coz i also spent lots of money.. now in my pocket i left rm11.. my wallet was stolen, so does my ATM cards and it was yesterday. My Bestfriend, janice told me that her dad just passed away at 4.25am that morning 5/9/11. His dad was a really good and friendly person. He suffered from and unexpected liver cancer due to taking too much supplyment that ppl say will get stronger or healthier.. It was all fake!! well, so this morning i got a text msg from her. She said she will be at fook lu siew till night time. And Thank God, i really thank him so much that i found some money from my savings.. i was dull at 1st when i thought i have to give money when i have just rm11.. so now i have to work hard in my next coming competition held on KKHS.. Although the reward for getting the 1st place was only rm200 i will work hard for it. Hope god will take good care of u uncle.. U will have a better life at a better place i wish

Lesson for me..

Today was the last day of my chinese chess(sabah&sarawak) competition. I end up with no. 8 place which is Rm50 only.. well i lost more than i gain because this morning i lost my wallet in a fucking coffee shop.. Because today most of the shops at Gaya street area were close coz of Hari Raya and i found a coffee shop then when i was reading my chinese chess book i put my wallet on my lap then my mum told me to change table. This is the moment where i made the best careless mistake ever!! i left it on the chair because i was over concentrated on my chinese chess book.. then Here comes a bitch who stole my wallet.. he then sat on the table we sat awhile ago with his wife.. then as soon as i found out my wallet was not with me i started to be very frustrated and i told my mum.. then of coz the bitch realized it he then said the food they ordered is abit slow then they say they go otehr coffee shop to eat.. then i started to suspect him but i didnt dare to blame a strager if he is the thief.. but now i regreted for not checking him well.. u see in my wallet its Rm77 accurately on cash i counted last night, 2 ATM cards, 1 Debit Card, L license, new sim card, member cards, Ic. Actually i planned to use these money on movies after my last match of chinese chess competition but who knows i will meet this bitch.. my mum told me not to curse this bitch but i dunno wat to do i wont curse him much.. i cannot control my temper and if i ever get the chance to see him, (i cant swear) but i will defenately punch him on the bitch face till he become a piece of shit even he lost his mind i wont care.. eat my punch _!_
Later on, i told my friends i couldnt join them for movies and stuff and got disappointed but good thing they understand me =/ then after the chess competition i quickly make a police report but u see.. its Hari raya and even i get the report i still need a Rm2 resit from police office.. and shit.. i have to wait till friday.. so how can i retrieve my Ic and all those banks stuff in time? == my mum subsidized me Rm100 but i dun feel like wasting it.. i have to find part time jobs bt i also need to have my Ic and car of coz.. my license havent renew and havent get the P yet.. zzz really couldnt imagine how cruel is this bitch.. so now i'll be working hard on my chinese chess since i'm having sem break now and nothing to read i will go for my chinese chess and earn some money =/