i'm being frustrated.

i calculate this month today is 14/9/11 and out of this 14 days i hang out with different groups of friend for 8 days.. then i sum up my total expenses which is rm246 == and i havent been doing anything usefull.. i feel that i'm a useless person with no goals to achieve, lazy person, not a good son, so and so.. i've been spending my mum's money like that instead of finding a job.. why will this happen to me? oh i wish i wont.. well i have a lot to talk about.. 1st of all.. my unexpected chess competition after my exams.. then another chess competition after the week which i spent lots of time practicing and get the 13th place only == The loss of my close friend's dad that he passed away.. makes me wanna spend more time to make her happy.. always get money from my mum with open hands == never find a job during this 3 weeks of sem break.. wallet being stolen everything i have to pay penalties.. it wasnt a good idea that even my JPJ re-test is on 19th sep which is the 1st day of my college sem 2.. i dont wan to miss so much.. oh well.. the best thing of all is that out of hundreds of TARC student i'm almost like 1 of them who doesnt get my results yet due to the intranet password error.. wth? did anyone tell me i have to check my results through intranet other than getting it from my mailbox? why? why all this happened to me? i didnt even help my parents in their shop.. everytime hang out or stay at home being feeded like a useless people.. All of the sudden i felt really huge guilt.. last night went out with Janice, my close friend to make her happy then end up overnight at her house.. i hope she will be happy.. later then i have lots of plan again maybe even tonight and tomorrow and friday and saturday.. then sunday if my car instructor is good enough he might wan me to learn driving but i told my old chess coach that i will go to lido practicing chinese chess.. well everyone has their story.. some hates him but i found the pity in him.. Am i a good listener? it seems that i'm like a good listener but i couldnt solve my problems well.. haiz..

Bad News

this sem break i we out with various groups of friends and of coz i also spent lots of money.. now in my pocket i left rm11.. my wallet was stolen, so does my ATM cards and it was yesterday. My Bestfriend, janice told me that her dad just passed away at 4.25am that morning 5/9/11. His dad was a really good and friendly person. He suffered from and unexpected liver cancer due to taking too much supplyment that ppl say will get stronger or healthier.. It was all fake!! well, so this morning i got a text msg from her. She said she will be at fook lu siew till night time. And Thank God, i really thank him so much that i found some money from my savings.. i was dull at 1st when i thought i have to give money when i have just rm11.. so now i have to work hard in my next coming competition held on KKHS.. Although the reward for getting the 1st place was only rm200 i will work hard for it. Hope god will take good care of u uncle.. U will have a better life at a better place i wish

Lesson for me..

Today was the last day of my chinese chess(sabah&sarawak) competition. I end up with no. 8 place which is Rm50 only.. well i lost more than i gain because this morning i lost my wallet in a fucking coffee shop.. Because today most of the shops at Gaya street area were close coz of Hari Raya and i found a coffee shop then when i was reading my chinese chess book i put my wallet on my lap then my mum told me to change table. This is the moment where i made the best careless mistake ever!! i left it on the chair because i was over concentrated on my chinese chess book.. then Here comes a bitch who stole my wallet.. he then sat on the table we sat awhile ago with his wife.. then as soon as i found out my wallet was not with me i started to be very frustrated and i told my mum.. then of coz the bitch realized it he then said the food they ordered is abit slow then they say they go otehr coffee shop to eat.. then i started to suspect him but i didnt dare to blame a strager if he is the thief.. but now i regreted for not checking him well.. u see in my wallet its Rm77 accurately on cash i counted last night, 2 ATM cards, 1 Debit Card, L license, new sim card, member cards, Ic. Actually i planned to use these money on movies after my last match of chinese chess competition but who knows i will meet this bitch.. my mum told me not to curse this bitch but i dunno wat to do i wont curse him much.. i cannot control my temper and if i ever get the chance to see him, (i cant swear) but i will defenately punch him on the bitch face till he become a piece of shit even he lost his mind i wont care.. eat my punch _!_
Later on, i told my friends i couldnt join them for movies and stuff and got disappointed but good thing they understand me =/ then after the chess competition i quickly make a police report but u see.. its Hari raya and even i get the report i still need a Rm2 resit from police office.. and shit.. i have to wait till friday.. so how can i retrieve my Ic and all those banks stuff in time? == my mum subsidized me Rm100 but i dun feel like wasting it.. i have to find part time jobs bt i also need to have my Ic and car of coz.. my license havent renew and havent get the P yet.. zzz really couldnt imagine how cruel is this bitch.. so now i'll be working hard on my chinese chess since i'm having sem break now and nothing to read i will go for my chinese chess and earn some money =/

The day after exam 26/8/11

finally finished all my papers.. many of the subject i got disappointed thanks to some wierd format.. 1st time i see account which ask theory for 18 marks and 1st time i do QS easiest question until 1-0.00000000000000397-0.00000000000000417 and more and answer = 1.. so i got mad i leave it blank the whole thing 10 marks gone == i was hoping i can score 4 A but my english coursework mark was low as well..
Problems i'm undergoing now is a lot.. 1st is regarding my chinese chess competition.. tomorrow yea 27/8/11 is the 1st day of my competition(sabah & sarawak) and yea.. i havent get ready and still on the gaming mode.. i got addicted to games back when my exam started == and it sucks really a lot.. next, i have just reaceived a text msg from my car instructor which he is calling me to renew my "L" license which means i will have to go for JPJ again anytime.. thirdly, wat will i do during my holidays? i wish to have a job which can help me to earn some pocket money while its holiday.. i wan to buy present for my friend but i dunno how to pass it to her though if i bought it.. she's rude == hmm.. another thing is that stupid darryl yong jia xue he owes me Rm20 and havent paid me for like months.. wat the F i hate to be ppl's debtor.. and KKHS chinese chess competition is also having on september i heard.. well.. i'll be joining and hoping i can meet some old friends =) Just 1 word for everything.. Sucess! i dont wan to fail any single thing.. i will 1st start with that RM20 ==

Penang trip + mom's birthday all in 1

Penang is a nice place but in some places such as the roads.. nah~ the car all very "long sei" the food is better than KK food abit.. and.. yeah~ actually there are more photos taken in penang but all in my sister's phone.. coz my HP isnt that good.. i'm looking forward for a HTC hopefully i can get mine soon :D

16/8/11 tuesday

Tomorrow is the 1st day of our TARC exam.. Of course i am nervous about that and still i don't have the mood to study yet.. i manage to read some "Hubungan Etnik" and so i hope i can pass this subject.. I was a bit disappointed on my English language that cause me from lossing interest in studying because i expected that i would score and A's in english all the time but who knows my coursework mark i get was low..
Oh~ this month i'm really busy :S because i have 5 papers of exam then JPJ on the same date with 1 of my paper and after this i also participated at the chinese chess (sabah & sarawak) competition - east malaysia.. Only God can help me now.. Another thing i wish God will help is that i have a particular close friend of mine.. her dad was told that he had a lung cancer but he never drinks or even smoke and she told me that she thinks that the causes of that disease is from consuming too much health product.. so just to remind all of u try not to consume those makai health tablets coz it may cause side effects.. uhmm.. thats all =)

Stress/confuse?

next 2 weeks i'm having my final exam for 1st sem of diploma in business admin.. I can see everyone is stressing abt their subjects and so do i.. but i'm gonna hang out today(saturday) with my old friend, janice. hmm next week i'll have a family vacation at penang for 4 days. U see.. how steady and i.. another thing is that i'll be having my JPJ re-test on the same day with my Accounting final's paper.. This is wat i'm stressing abt.. hope i can manage everything easily.. i need God's help. hmm.. i never knew that the girl Christy i liked b4 still has 99% same attitude and character like i do. She's now staying single and studying really hard for her PMR =) like wat i did in my B.A course but the only bad thing she had on me is that.. she treat me really bad.. maybe like few months or half year i'll find her once then get pissed by her and we stopped texting.. i'll most probably focus on my studies now~