why?

bored.. tired.. felt defeated.. not ready for studies then got affected with relationship problems.. i hate this feelings.. really couldn't describe what is my current feelings now.. always i tell myself to put those stupid relationship stuff aside but still it will come back and if i go for it.. i'll get hurt or something even if she's not my girlfriend.. lol.. 1 day i must throw away my books and start learning how to be a socialble man.. i need it really.. too must stress will defenately get me several A's in most of my subject but at the same time reducing my time in enjoying with friends and the person i like.. well basically i wont mention who is the person i like but its obvious for my real life friends.. they knew it.. but i'd prefer better on my bestfriend.. since she's got a bf now and changing her career into working in an office, i believe we'll sooner or later loss contact with each other.. well i can say that without her, i might loss my sanity long long ago.. so.. yeah.. she could be someone important to me.. As for the person i'd like.. hmm.. yeah.. i like her but she sometimes seems to like me too but sometimes not and i just knew her half a year.. maybe i need to understand her a bit more longer b4 i tackle.. if she is still available in the future.. talk about my studies, hmm.. Finally only 1 subject i got the highest but its just a simple test.. it's my macro.. i scored 99 and is very satisfied with it.. as for the other subjects.. i need to work harder on it.. then for my sports.. i've joined my bestfriend and her friends that group and he told me that i improved a lot but unfortunately my exam is coming so i refuse to follow them for badminton.. family problems.. well usually nothing much till recently.. my mum felt sick and i still doesnt had the mood to look after my parent's business.. she told me to change another business but Hello? i'm still studying in diploma level how do you aspect me to think of a long term business for you now? she sometimes treated me like a kid as well.. and i was like WTF.. up till my friend Ian, he has recruited me in his dancing group.. i think the reason why i joined his group is for chasing girls i like but hmm.. seems like i always have an unstable answer whether i like someone or not.. but for Ian so sorry that i have to learn dancing a lil bit later.. will work really hard.. Till now, actually i thought i know myself well but not at all.. what is my future goals? of coz being rich and have my own family with my own house and cars.. well.. thats everyone's answer.. but i mean maybe my job, relationship, attitude, likes, dislikes.. etc. everything has made me gone crazy.. i told myself since i was form 4 that when i grow up i'll be an accountant then said businessman, then now? no idea.. i told myself that i will like someone but do i really like her? cant answer. i told myself to control my bad attitude everything but why? i still will act like that sometimes..