A new life

Ever since i passed my JPJ yesterday i started feeling a whole change right now.. lesser stress just on my studies i have to work hard for my 2nd sem.. my 1st Sem was doing great 3.75 CGPA =) hmm.. i was thinking if i could quit my game as well.. although i knew its impossible but i'll try.. hmm..

i'm being frustrated.

i calculate this month today is 14/9/11 and out of this 14 days i hang out with different groups of friend for 8 days.. then i sum up my total expenses which is rm246 == and i havent been doing anything usefull.. i feel that i'm a useless person with no goals to achieve, lazy person, not a good son, so and so.. i've been spending my mum's money like that instead of finding a job.. why will this happen to me? oh i wish i wont.. well i have a lot to talk about.. 1st of all.. my unexpected chess competition after my exams.. then another chess competition after the week which i spent lots of time practicing and get the 13th place only == The loss of my close friend's dad that he passed away.. makes me wanna spend more time to make her happy.. always get money from my mum with open hands == never find a job during this 3 weeks of sem break.. wallet being stolen everything i have to pay penalties.. it wasnt a good idea that even my JPJ re-test is on 19th sep which is the 1st day of my college sem 2.. i dont wan to miss so much.. oh well.. the best thing of all is that out of hundreds of TARC student i'm almost like 1 of them who doesnt get my results yet due to the intranet password error.. wth? did anyone tell me i have to check my results through intranet other than getting it from my mailbox? why? why all this happened to me? i didnt even help my parents in their shop.. everytime hang out or stay at home being feeded like a useless people.. All of the sudden i felt really huge guilt.. last night went out with Janice, my close friend to make her happy then end up overnight at her house.. i hope she will be happy.. later then i have lots of plan again maybe even tonight and tomorrow and friday and saturday.. then sunday if my car instructor is good enough he might wan me to learn driving but i told my old chess coach that i will go to lido practicing chinese chess.. well everyone has their story.. some hates him but i found the pity in him.. Am i a good listener? it seems that i'm like a good listener but i couldnt solve my problems well.. haiz..

Bad News

this sem break i we out with various groups of friends and of coz i also spent lots of money.. now in my pocket i left rm11.. my wallet was stolen, so does my ATM cards and it was yesterday. My Bestfriend, janice told me that her dad just passed away at 4.25am that morning 5/9/11. His dad was a really good and friendly person. He suffered from and unexpected liver cancer due to taking too much supplyment that ppl say will get stronger or healthier.. It was all fake!! well, so this morning i got a text msg from her. She said she will be at fook lu siew till night time. And Thank God, i really thank him so much that i found some money from my savings.. i was dull at 1st when i thought i have to give money when i have just rm11.. so now i have to work hard in my next coming competition held on KKHS.. Although the reward for getting the 1st place was only rm200 i will work hard for it. Hope god will take good care of u uncle.. U will have a better life at a better place i wish